Step up

Step up and tell us

You think you're slick with your trick
You like to walk in the room and provoke
But all you've proved in the end is that
You're the one who's the pathetic joke

You think it's about what you say
But tell us what it is you've done
Have you personally ever stood guard
In the black of the night till dawn

Have you even been on the mat
With somebody trying to take you down
Has somebody ever swung on you
For being such an obvious ass clown

Tell us all about how you faired
When you've fussed ranted and fumed
But being a wise ass wasn't enough
To get you out of a physical room

Tell us all about an act of bravery
That speaks well of your humility and soul
Tell us all about how you've stood in the wind
And bore witness to the rain the pain

And the cold



Neils
1:27 pm
02/24/2006
*
transcribed this time
10:10 am
02/27/2006

All this

All this

All this blame game at every
Twist and turn of second rate fate
And I’m the one you’re up against
I’m the one you say you hate

All this insipid feminization
Of every man who takes a stand
And I’m the one you think
Has got to meet the new demands

All this weak kneed apologizing
And gutless wonders on bended knees
And I’m the one you think
Should bow and scrape to please

All this puffed up pontificating
And excellence be flat out damned
And I’m the one you think
Will be your sacrificial lamb

You’d do better jumping in a fire
Sliding down a ragged jagged grate
Before that opinion with me
Would ever carry any weight

All these garbage spewing doings
And hustlers offering up their chump bait
And I’m the one you’re up against
I’m the one

I’m the one you say you hate



Neils
7:51 pm
02/05/2006
*
transcribed this time
7:33 am
02/06/2006

N....again

Debating losers

Debating losers one throat
At a time

I like the way you

Burn down their house
Call out their names
Ruin their day
Put their world to flames

I think you do fine
When you take them down
When you reveal them to be
Sop headed clowns

You’re alright with me
You’ve got attitude and style
Too bad if they don’t get it
Because you’re worth the smile

So what if some don’t like it
That you cause them pain
Maybe it would help if they’d
Occasionally engage their brain

Yeah I like the way
You cut to the quick
Or hammer your point
Onto heads thick as bricks

You’re alright with me
You’ve got attitude and style
What the Hell did they expect
When they put fire on trial

You’re alright with me
You’ve got attitude and style
And too bad too sad if they don’t get it

Because you’re definitely
Worth the smile



Neils
10:23 am
12/05/2005
*
transcribed this time
10:26 pm
12/07/2005

I bet I could

Hit you twice
Before your teeth hit the ground
From the first punch

Oh yes
Speed and power
They do add to the sound
Of that satisfying crunch

Of the facial bones
Breaking from a quick left
And
Devastating right

Keep it up you
Punk poser loser
Keep praying to
That dark edge of night

That is coming for
Your disrespectful
Shameless gutless
Spineless worthless ways

Just like in this case you
Hear of a brave courageous man
And all you’ve got is some
Low life scumbag thing to say



Neils
7:09 pm
10/30/2005
*
written in response to
some anti-anything protestor
making some smart ass comment
on another man's actual brave deeds
*
transcribed this time
2:00 pm
11/05/2005

N....again

Just checking in

With a Reconfirmation that
Yes

Most of them are crazy
Most of them lazy
Most of them don't think
And if they do it's hazy

Most of them are lost
But angry at you
If a map comes out
Into open view




Neils
1:52 pm
11/05/2005
*
transcribed this time
1:55 pm
11/05/2005

Blonde Justice

Once upon a time

I heard blonde justice call my name
And I did answer without any fear
She had seen enough of worry
She had seen enough sadness and tears

And just for this moment perhaps
I thought she should know one smile
That did not ask her to face any troubles
Or yet another set of miles and trials

For somewhere out here is a gift of life
Somewhere out here is a season
That brings to us a quiet evenings light
That is not wrought by rhyme or reason

But exists simply on its own
Like the fall air that cools the skin
And speaks to us like one does
When standing next to a friend

Once upon a time
I heard blonde justice call my name
And being a brave soul poet fool
Or romantic took a step toward her flame



Neils
11:14 pm
10/28/2005
*
transcribed this time
11:26 pm
10/28/2005

Give away everything

Give away everything
Please don’t hurt me
Give away everything
I will be your whore

Give away everything
Please don’t desert me
I’ll make everything
The way it was before

You will speak my language
We will take your food
I’ll burn the Bill of Rights
If it suits my mood

You think you got it going
Then I fill your head with doubt
I’m the dangerous one among you
Your own kind selling you out

If trapped beneath a falling object
Could you cut off your hand
Or would you lay there and die
Sayin this is what God demands

Don’t tell me that I don’t love you
Don’t tell me anything at all
And keep your hands off my damn bike
Unless you want to permanently crawl

Just like you morally do
Just like when you implicate
That I’m the one who did you wrong
Because you can’t clean the slate

People keep talking their culture
People keep talking their rights
Tellin you what you can do for them
And takin everything in sight



Neils
Possibly the early 90’s
Written on Belknap Street

See ya all around

See ya all around in the
Rage in the cage with gloves
See you all around in the
Ink on the page about love

See ya all around in the sky
And the midnight blue
And whether any of you
Like it or not

I want and expect
The best from you.........


Neils
10:26 pm
10/19/2005
*
transcribed this time
10:29 pm
19/19/2005

It is in my longing for perfection that....

It is in my longing for perfection
That ….

I want to say something so stupid
That it makes any one hearing it stupid as well
I want to say something so mudane and uninteresting
That the best I'll get is a what the Hell

I want to assert my superiority over nothing
I want to placate the authoritarian rule
I want to nit pit the quick and the light and bright
I want to be drenched in the words of fools

Oh to be offended over nothing
That'll show how sensitive I am
And yes I work to build my dreams
But only as long as it's over quick sand

How temporary can it all be constructed
How paper thin can be made the walls
Look how brave and gallant I'll be
If I'm always ready to throw away it all

Come show the me road to nowhere
Come guide me down to the pit of despair
Come introduce me to the wheelers and dealers
Who appear as though they'll be bargaining

Even unto their last breath of air


Neils
6:03 pm
10/17/2005

On my wondrous guaranteed redemption

On my wondrous
Guaranteed redemption

I could beat Mother Theresa to death
I could stomp the life out of Gandhi himself
And I would of course be instantly forgiven
Because it's true I'm better than any one else

I'm better than all the saints and holy men
The miracles mean nothing without me
Only I know all the secret passage ways
Only I know the one true door and have its key

Praise be to me and tolerate my every move
Bow scrape and grovel before my every whim
And don't try any of those light tricks with me
You know I prefer it low and comfortable and dim



Neils
7:39 pm
10/15/2005

What is today's lesson plan

What is today's lesson plan

Teacher of all that is good
And clean intelligent and bright
Keeper of the truth and integrity
Guardian of the one true light

Tell us how we can be like you
Tell us all how we should be
What is that we should all do
If we are to become open and free

Share with us your creativity
Share with us what you've earned
Show us our proper places and graces
That one day we too might learn

To look through the tears of the years
And up up into the breath taking vision
That we too my soar aloft
And escape all this earthly derision




Neils
8:33 pm
10/15/2005
*
transcribed this time
12:29 am
10/16/2005

Ah Shoot

Shoot that terrorist in the head
Shoot them again to ensure they're dead

Shoot them often
Shoot them quick
Shoot them close up
Or from back a few clicks

Shoot a terrorists
Where he stands
Shoot them down
To their last man

Shoot them in the morning
Shoot them at night
Shoot them because you know
It feels all right

Shoot them before coffee
Shoot them before dawn
Keep pulling that trigger
Till they're all gone

Shoot that terrorist in the head
Shoot them again to ensure they're dead




Neils
12:28 pm
10/15/2005

What the Hell

What the Hell are you talking
About violence for

You wouldn't fight to defend anything
You wouldn't fight to defend yourself
Your country your honor your family
Your neighbors your friends anybody else

You believe in nothing
And nothing is what you are
You are the mouse in the house
And wear no battle scars




Neils
5:50 am
09/09/2005
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transcribed this time
9:09 am
09/09/2005

Keep your truck running

Keep several foot lockers with food
Keep a lot of portable water on hand
Keep guns and and plenty of ammunition
Have a mind set ready to meet the demands

Louisiana is a natural disaster
And look what's happening there
You might want to have some plans
And routes if you say you care

Anything can happen
It can all just suddenly go off grid
I'm not depending on somebody else
To know the right size garbage can lid

I make these decisions myself
I don't want to do any un-necessary harm
But I'm not leavin it up to shooters and looters
And my ability to turn them away with charm

We are being invaded by criminal forces
Too many have lost their frontier attitude
Too many coddle and doddle
And spout off meaningless platitudes

Everybody better get in shape
Everybody better dig down deep
Because slime at best is biding its time
To kill you while you sleep



Neils
8:02 pm
09/01/2005

One should guide ones life by fear

When misunderstood

One should apologize
One should realize they only
Really exist in so far as
They appear in others eyes

Because

The true value of an individual
Is that they are nothing at the core
And that there are only the shifting winds
Of surface congeniality on which to soar

Such is the depth of wisdom
That fear of failure brings to bear
It is always in another’s hands
As to the judgment if one truly cares

Just like emptiness is the greatest teacher
And patience is the damnation of the soul
Faith is but a meaningless promise
If one observes the chill factors cold

Yes

True work never stands on its own
The critics always win
And that’s why it’s best to always cower
To show that you want to be their friends


Neils
11:10 pm
08/25/2005
*
transcribed this time
11:20 pm
08/25/2005

On offers of compromisingly ... getting along

Forget it

I don't care what creeps like or don't like
I don't care what the nit picky say
I don't care what fair means if it's some ruse
To get me to bow down before mediocrity's way

Don't be pushin on me if you don't
Want to get substantially shoved right back
I don't need some rough puffs screamin
And whinin like I've been on an all out attack

Because if you swear you were just going light
And think I came back way too strong
Then you need to be writing lyrics
To some of the back street boys songs

And if there has to be one more lesson
Someone thinks they need to be teaching me
Let's just say I'm not any body's whippin boy
And I quit taken shots long ago for free



Neils
5:10 pm
08/24/2005
*
transcribed this time
5:24 pm
08/24/2005
*
no disclaimer on this one
if you take it personally
maybe you should.......


N....again

Poor baby

Poor baby

Is it safe there in gray world
Where nothing is black and white
Where nothing is ever wrong
Where nothing is ever right

Nuance this
Nuance that
It's all a point of view
Even the very facts

For fence straddlers
Poor poor baby
If yes and no is too hard
Well then there's always maybe

But everywhere
And all the time
Sounds to me
Like an unbalanced mind

Let's get down in it
Let's get into the dirt
Tell me something that matters
Tell me of your deepest hurt

Who would you protect
Who to you draws sacred breath
Who would you step in front of
To meet eye to eye with death




Neils
10:20 pm
08/22/2005
*
transcribed this time
10:24 pm
8/22/2005

Walking the edge

Oh yeah I love it

I love being welcomed by the spiders
The toads the worms and snakes
All looking to pose right up
All looking to fake they got

What it takes

I love all the false intentions
I love all the alibi's
I love all the split double tongues
Swearing they don't lie

Cause

Everybody's got it coming
Everybody gets to choose
But some think they can only win
If they make the other guy lose

But I've got enough volunteers
To be the trouble looking for me
To believe that my own attitude
Doesn't affect what I think I see

Not that I won't push back
But I'm not afraid of a smile
Sometimes even if only a memory
It's what can get you through that

Last hard mile



Neils
6:43 pm
08/16/2005
*
transcribed this time
12:03 am
08/17/2005

This one was hard sweat

Are you coming to me
With Deception

Are you coming to me
With a lie in your heart
Are you looking for a way out
Of doing your own fair part

Are you looking to upset me
Unbalance me down to my core
All so you don’t have to answer
All so you can take away more

What’s with all the hurry up
What’s with the pressure game
It’s always seems to be something
Your approach is always the same

You’re always coming across angry
Saying you don’t have to be on time
And that you can do anything you want
Because it’s your body soul and mind

But just when it can go good
You jump right off into full negate
And yet wonder why you’re confused
Wonder why you’re so full of hate




Neils
10:55 pm
08/12/2005

Breaking the silence

Breaking the silence

With a breath of life breathed in
With a relaxation of the shoulders
With a choice of company
That will not make your world any colder

Breaking the silence

With a simple smile
With a look upon your face
That says you know the lightning
But also address yourself to grace

Breaking the silence

With a quiet thought
For the sake of another
Like sometimes all real love needs
Is for someone brave enough to

Be a lover

Breaking the silence
But maybe this time with a sound
That knows even the rage of angels
Can walk in peace upon sacred ground


Neils
6:44 pm
08/11/2005
*
transcribed this time
6:53 pm
08/11/2005